Not because things are going awful. Things are great, thanks for asking,
Probably because it's Anna's first Christmas, and all the sappy movies are on and Christmas music is playing EVERYWHERE. And you get grateful for all you have.
But that doesn't mean awful things don't happen. Children go missing, parents pass away, grandparents get sick, or any combination of those. Or you read scary books about zombie apocalypses where people give up their children to strangers in order to save them.
All in all, once you've become a parent, you see the world VERY differently. Things are a lot scarier. Potential disasters are more often than not brought to the forefront of your mind, regardless of how impossible they might seem (you know, like zombie apocalypses. C'mon, you've all considered what you would do in the event of a zombie apocalypse. For the record, head for a prison. Apparently it is your best bet.)
All those stories about parents losing their children really seem to hit home, especially around the holidays. And you wonder, but don't wonder, what it would be like to lose a child. Who would you be? Are you still a parent if you lose a child? How would you react? What sort of person would you become?
I hate to think it, but I would probably become a sadistic version of the Hulk.
Seriously.
So I'm going to hug my little one a little closer tonight and thank heavens I have her!
